I've had the comment made to me over the last year, "this is an awful lot for just one child." When people say this they are referring to the adoption process. It's expensive, and time consuming. It breaks your heart some days ... or most days. It's an emotional roller coaster like one I've never been on before. It's a lot of effort that usually requires personal sacrifice, discomfort, and even pain. Through it all this journey has opened my eyes to the love that God has for each of His children in a very personal way.
We have spent the last 5 years praying for our child and over a year now eagerly seeking him and working as hard as we can to bring him home. We've sacrificed almost everything for one little child... our time, our comfort, our status as "normal," our money, our emotions, our hearts. He's not even home and we already love him completely and intensely.
I read the parable of the lost sheep last weekend and almost wept...
"Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Does he not leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.' I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent."
Luke 15: 4-7
That's exactly how God is with us! He will search for us and He did sacrifice EVERYTHING to bring us home! The amazing thing is that He cares for us all on an individual level. At the end of the parable when the Shepard finds the one lost sheep he calls to everyone to come rejoice with him. I was thinking about how it will be when we finally have Tucker home and in our arms. The celebration will be incredible and all the sacrifice, aching, longing, and searching will be so worth it!
When I think about that I know that it's so worth it that we'd do it all over again... and we probably will... that's what being a parent is all about... that's why I can call HIM Abba Father... that's how I love my children - every single one that's ever been given to me.
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