1.22.2011

{new normal}

Getting back into the swing of things is harder than I thought it would be. We've only been home a couple days, so maybe it will get easier.The jet lag is crazy and we're still recovering from the altitude sickness we acquired in Ethiopia. Basically, we're just really tired and really dizzy all the time. Next time we'll know to take our meds! :)

But in all of that, the strangest thing is to be home without our son. The pain of saying goodbye has not faded and to be honest, I don't think it will. We're just getting through and hoping to stay busy until we get the phone call that it's finally time to bring him home. In the meantime we've been staring at his pictures and watching videos just to feel closer to him.

We've been so changed by our time in Ethiopia. We experienced things that opened our hearts and our eyes in new ways. There is so much to process and take in. I look forward to sharing bits and pieces soon.

Just remembering his beautiful face... 


and his sweet baby smell...


23 comments:

He & Me + 3 said...

Lauren,

I can't even imagine how u feel. God does and so I will pray that the God of all comfort gives u and John peace and strength to make it until u get that call.
Hugs,
Mimi

Lara said...

I can't imagine how you must be hurting. I'll be praying that the embassy moves quickly.

Jenny said...

My heart is breaking for you, but joyful just the same. What a blessing to experience this type of love, no?

Linda said...

Happy... that you got to meet your son and hold him and fall in love with him. Sad... that you had to go home and leave him there. Hopeful...that it won't be long until you get the call that tells you to go and get him! Prayerful...that all goes well!

{{HUGS}}Love, Linda

Anna said...

Our experience was different than yours, husband teenaged son and I went to Ecuador. We were all there together for 5 weeks. Husband came home to work for 3 more weeks. I tell you, it took about 2 months being home before I felt normal again. The altitide, pollution, hard bed, stress to the max. Be gentle with yourself. I too, will never be the same. I cant imagine how your arms and heart ache. I will be praying for you.

Pamela said...

I've added you to my prayer list. Must be heartbreaking for you and the wait endless. I hope the wait isn't long.

Jim and April said...

oh lauren, i truly cannot imagine how hard that must be. How long until possibly you can go back? are we talking weeks or months? will definitely pray for you girl! your son is precious and I am SOOO excited for the day Tucker is home in his nursery in your arms! Wished I lived closer, I would come congratulate you at the airport! ;0)

Leigh said...

oh friend. my heart is breaking for you! praying that the embassy starts moving fast and you get your embassy date really soon!

Alicia said...

Oh, Lauren...I can't even imagine how you and John feel. But, I'll be praying for you guys, and that the next few weeks will only feel like minutes to you.

Bridget said...

Lauren, You made me get all teary and bleary eyed.

Critty said...

I cannot even imagine how much your heart is hurting my friend. Praying for all three of you and so sorry you are sick... hopefully rest over the next few days will help that.

partialemptynester said...

Hurting for you! Over ten years ago when we brought our precious daughter home, there wasn't the required going back and forth...I can't even imagine what that would have been like...by the grace of God alone, you'll make it, sweet Momma!

Bobbi said...

Praying for you...that time will FLY by...

Kate said...

Praying that time supernaturally flies by for you all! I loved all of the pics I saw on FB! What a sweet, sweet boy!

Emily said...

Lauren,

I have been reading your blog for some time now. Adoption is close to my heart, especially since 5 of my siblings are adopted. :) I shared your story with my husband. We're praying! What a joy it will be for Tucker to grow up in your home. Such love! I pray you will have a restful weekend and that the peace of Christ will rule in your heart!

JDaniel4's Mom said...

I can't imagine the ache you must feel in your heart and arms being so far from him.

Franchesca said...

Oh Lauren I can only imagine how much your heart is just aching to hold your son again. I'm so sorry and hope you get that phone call soon soon soon. I love these two pictures, especially the one of you just holding your boy close.

xxxooo

Kelli said...

Hold tight to the wonderful moments you shared with your little boy! They will help to wrap you in love and warm your heart till the day comes that you bring him home in your arms for good!

xoxo
Kelli @ loveoursimplelife.blogspot.com

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

My heart hurts for you both; I painfully receive your words here, knowing that the ache is very real and tender. It will soon be gone when you can bring him home. Until then, may the gentle peace of Christ keep you all until you are reunited under one roof.

~elaine

cait said...

congratulations on meeting your precious Tucker!! Praying that you find strength and peace in this time of waiting!

Jill - FNA Photography said...

Lauren, I am over-joyed to see you with Tucker in your arms. I so understand the ache you are both feeling. My heart aches with you and rejoices knowing this is for a little while. Praying for you all and thanking God for all the ways He touched your hearts while in Ethiopia. I love what you shared!

My heart will never be the same either! He knows. He understands! He will show you exactly what to do with the new eyes, ears and heart for His children!

Blessings and love!
Jill

Katie said...

Wow when David Platt wrote about his travels it was then and there that I thought, he has seen what many of us will never see. We are so spoiled in America!! That is precious you holding your son. I can't wait to read more.

Erin said...

I just read this post with tears rolling downs my cheeks.. i will pray for you and john to receive that phone call soon.