This has been a kind of long week... good, not bad (hard in spots), but just long.
My poor boy is cutting another tooth - this is his 4th tooth in 3 weeks! It seems they all decided to come at once. His little gum is just bulging and I can see the white right under the surface. He's drooling like a faucet and constantly rubs his tongue along his gum, which actually looks like he's sticking his tongue out at me over and over again and it's really funny and adorable! Nights have been rough and he hasn't been napping well either. I'm afraid we all look a bit weary and worn right now. I know that once that darn tooth pops through we will have a good nights rest and all will be well. :)
We met with a specialist to follow up on Mareto's kidney infection. He goes back to the children's hospital on Tuesday for two tests. One is an ultrasound of his kidneys - the other is just awful and I won't describe it, but they told us to prepare for it to be rough. :( I am so sad just thinking about it and I teared up in the doctor's office. I know it's necessary, but in the words of the specialist, "he's been through so much in his little life already!" I just want his little body to get a break! All in all, he has four doctor's appointments in the next 7 days. Goodness. Praying for good results and FULL health for my son.
Lately God has been breaking my heart for the unreached people groups in the world. I've been thinking a lot about the millions of people who have never heard the gospel... praying... and wondering what that means for me personally and us as the Church. On my right sidebar you will notice a gadget from the Joshua Project - each day new information about an unreached people group comes up. Will you join me in praying for these people? I pray that God would equip and send out his workers to this people - to give them the Light and the Way.
Saturday we have our 2nd post adoption visit with our social worker. I can't believe it's already time for that! next month we'll have been home with our sweet boy for six months! It really has flown by... I wish there was a way to slow down time.
This week I've been focusing on prayer. This quote from John Piper really made me think... "One of the great uses of Twitter and Facebook will be to prove at the Last Day that prayerlessness was not from lack of time."So I took a break from facebook this week to devote that time to prayer. It has been wonderful. It helped me gain new perspective.
Then there's Sunday... July 10th. Four years to the day since we said goodbye to our second little baby. Four years since I carried a precious life inside me... how has it been four years? Sometimes it feels like it was forever ago, but then the unexpected stab of pain in my heart feels as fresh as if it were yesterday. This week has been odd. Lot's of pondering, lot's of praying, and a few tears... someone special once told me that while grief gets less intense you never "get over it." So true. I've spent many moments this week thinking about our two little ones in heaven ... how much I miss them, and how they have a little brother here that I wish they could know because he is just so amazing. Mostly I just want to hold them... but there's heaven for that, and I can't wait!